How’s your week been? Mine’s been good. Since my children’s book has binged back to my illustrator for some changes, I figured, why not give another book a shot in the meantime?
This one will be nonfiction, though, and I won’t say much about it, except that I should have written it a long, long time ago–especially for those of you who haven’t been followers of mine here at Fiction and Copy Decoded for very long.
Let’s get to it for today.
Maybe this has been brought on by the fact that I’m about to do one of the most impactful things (I hope) that I’ve ever done in my life. Or maybe it’s just that I need to calm down a bit.
Sometimes my reaction seems a bit silly to me, but after I’d received lots of likes and comments on Facebook on my post about writing the children’s book…
Things started creeping into my head…
What if I did my research wrong?
What if no one likes it?
What if nobody buys?
What if everybody buys?
So on, so forth…
This is real, but it doesn’t need to be. Do you know why?
I’ve failed before, but self-doubt can still be a killer.
That shouldn’t be new to anyone. Almost nobody (except for a couple people I know) ever picked up something new and were awesome right away.
The first stories I wrote sucked (next week I should tell you about one of my first characters, Charlie Russell). And this was during the time I was actually getting professional writing training.
That’s why I wrote this post about not being afraid to write crap every so often. Deep down, I’ve always wanted to be awesome at something in a short amount of time. Maybe you have, too. Sometimes it just doesn’t happen (although I did learn to juggle after about 20 hours of practice, but that was over probably a couple months, at least).
For some reason, way back when I thought that if I just learned enough, thought enough, or what-have-ya, I could go back to that pile of writerly doo and spruce it up. I didn’t want to keep writing junk I would have to clean up later. I still don’t like it, but…
In the years since then, I’ve learned, as Arnold once said, “It doesn’t wurk dat way.” You have to clean up what you write, and as you get better, you’ll have to clean up a little less, and a little less. And along the way, you’ll figure out why you have to clean up certain things.
On the other end of the self-doubt train, there are times I put too much thought into things that are out of my control. If nobody buys the book (although I’ve had family members saying they want to, which is awesome), I know more about actually launching a book than I did before, and I can carry that knowledge forward.
So either way, I win.
Has something like that ever happened to you, where you wondered if you could really pull off something, even during the time you were trying to do things? Drop me a line with your comments–I’d love to hear about it.
Tomorrow is Triple F, and the weekly prompt. Be sure to stop by.
Until next time,